and that's why I need a blog

hi :). if you are reading this, it must mean you know me from somewhere. Whether that is writetheworld, school, instagram, I am about to spill all about me, just because I want to be honest with who I am right now and see the progression if I look back on this posts years from now.

1. I am eighteen years old and I'm currently a freshman in college. I am studying law school, which is such a different thing than the one I had in mind, but we'll get to that later. I had planned for years, literally, to be a doctor. More specifically a gynecologist. But hence, I always got squirmy at the sight of blood and I hated the idea of being in the hospital and smell the antiseptic odor 24/7... Therefore, medicine is NOT for me, and I'm really glad I had someone who cared about me enough to help me change my mind.

2. I am a writer, and writers thrive from hard times. At least, that's what has happened to me. This year was for me, the hardest I've ever endured. my beliefs were changed, I did things that I never thought I would (which brought me genuinely great amounts of happiness) and that's when I realized I was doing something wrong for the majority of my life. I cried this year more than I had in a lifetime, I was hurt and hurt in return, and hence I found my escapade in writing. A friend of mine recommended me some site, but as I started to get more attuned with my emotions (and I believe I managed to sink into depression once or twice), the site became constricting, taking down my content because it was too raw, graphic. That's why I'm here writing this right now.

3. I lost my mom less than a year ago. She was the person that had the most impact on me. I did everything I could to make her proud. Obviously, she was my best friend, my everything. Losing that so unexpectedly was hard. Being an emotional person, letting go of the past became increasingly hard, and I had weeks where everything was crumbling. I managed to survive, though, and I'm excited to share everything in this blog in future posts. My very own personal diary.

4. I am a believer. Though I struggle deciding between a religion, I firmly believe in God. It is that belief the one that partially brought me out of that darkness and helped me cling to whatever little stubbornness I had after mom passed. I love talking about God, the entirety of why I believe, what I have experienced, and I'm sure this blog will allow me just so.

5. Aside from these ginormous facts, I love writing songs and I am currently on the third book of my book series (which I doubt will ever be published) but I love to do just that. I have an instagram page for study content, I am OBSESSED with Taylor Swift and her magistracy at writing lyrics. I love music, being organized, and reading.

I think with those little facts you might've gotten to know me a bit better. It truly makes my heart warm. These aren't very in-depth, but this blog will be about elaborating on all of them. I will share what depression felt like for me, what writing truly is for me, tips, real feelings, advice, all that I couldn't and kept in me for so long. The purpose of this blog isn't lucrative. I just want to share my experience, hoping some of you might be happy someone else felt exactly the way you've felt, because I know it sucked for me to think that I was alone (though I wasn't).

Thank you so much for reading! I hope you stay to read some more :)

Profuse greetings, Mel.